the revision cave


Well, my current book is nearly done. But I was wondering, the other day, why writing a book never gets any easier.

I’ve written quite a lot of books. This one is actually the twenty fourth, although about eight of them are edited collections. Not the same as a monograph or trade book – although don’t get me wrong, editing is still hard work, but it’s different.

However this book feels a lot harder than some of the others.

I think that’s because some books were known territory before I started on them. They had already been the stuff of workshops or teaching or a pre-existing set of reports and conference papers. Others, like the one I’m doing now, are all new work. All new. So the task of writing is not only about getting on top of new material but also about constructing a new argument, one that is both coherent and logical and persuasive.

This book is probably not unlike writing a thesis all over again.

I’ve run really late on this book too and that hasn’t helped. I had to send a draft into the publisher. I’d been doing a lot of research at the same time as writing and really struggled to find diary space to get the manuscript together. So what I sent off was pretty underdone. The middle of the book – that’s where I was reporting the actual empirical work I’d done – was solid. However the topping and tailing of the material wasn’t up to scratch. There was too much description in the scene-setting chapters and the argument got a bit lost. The ending tailed off badly and the implications of the argument weren’t nearly strong enough.

Does this sound a bit familiar? It wouldn’t be surprising if it did, as these are problems that often appear in drafts of a thesis too. The stuff is there and mostly in the right order, but it just isn’t sufficiently honed and refined. What is also familiar, I am sure, is the work that I’m doing now to get the manuscript finished.

Revising and refining aren’t easy to do. They can be hard on the body, emotions and intellect.

I was vaguely embarrassed, particularly as someone who writes about writing, to have my drafty work go out to readers in such an obviously incomplete form. They were generally kind, I must say, and I do hope that they are pleasantly surprised by how much the final version has moved on from the one they saw.

But getting to this point? Well.

I’ve found myself waking up half way through the night a lot. I’ve taken to keeping a notebook by the side of the bed again, a sure sign that heavy duty thinking is going on, whether I consciously want it to or not. I’m asleep and then come to, realising that I am awake when I should be asleep, and I am actually rewriting. I have fully formed sentences in my mind, sentences for a section that I have scheduled to write that day. Or I wake up fretting how to fix those troublesome bits. And happily, I have woken up on two occasions knowing how to reframe the beginning and then the ending.

I can’t do big re-imagining work to order however, and there has been the occasional very scary moment when I’ve wondered if I am really up to the task. Waking or sleeping, I can still work up a good bit of terror about the prospect of being unable to fix-the-book.

Some people might call this fear imposter phenomenon – but I don’t think it is that. It’s just that thinking and writing something new can be fear-inducing. It’s perfectly rational to be afraid when you are standing at the edge of known territory and need to leap forward. Will I/we land safely and be able to march on? Or will I/we tumble and stumble in a prat-fall with the laughter of critical readers ringing in my/our ears?

So yes, there’s been any number of moments of self-doubt and anxiety. And I am sure they will go on for sometime, even after the book has been published.

But there are also moments of exhilaration – I found a way to bring these disparate ideas together! I made this point so neatly!  Yes chapter, I’ve got you licked, you are mine.

And moments of pleasure – Yes! I haven’t seen anyone say this in just this way.  Ha, I just dealt with a noxious piece of government policy in a few well-referenced sentences!

Right now I’m at the point of extreme boredom. I’m just so over revising. I have other things I want to get on and write. I’ve finished with the last chapter now and there’s no more imaginative or creative work to do. It’s only the time-consuming process of checking references and consistency in naming, looking for tics, word repetition and code words, making sure all of the figures are listed at the front, compiling a glossary… it goes on.

Stuck in the depths of the revision cave looking out on what could be. So this is just like the last stages of the thesis – yes?

I know there is one more read through to do yet. I can’t simply shove the whole thing into a zip file and press send. Not now. So it’s gritted teeth time. Time to summon up will power and the power of routine. I’m sitting at my computer. I have work to do. I just need to get on and do it.

So yes, I am writing a blog post when I should be proofing. I am checking my email when I should be proofing. I am on twitter when I should be proofing. And I am sometimes thinking about the next bit of writing and becoming very frustrated I can’t get to it.

But there’s a deadline of end of month and I’m going to make it.

As will you, thesis writer. As will you.


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About pat thomson

Pat Thomson is Professor of Education in the School of Education, The University of Nottingham, UK
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8 Responses to the revision cave

  1. Thank you!! I am delighted to know I am in such great company…


    • Salawati says:

      Dear Prof Thomson , I was looking for materials about turning a PhD thesis to a book and I found your website. Your writing is all inspirational and I feel like, yes, I can do this! I’ve bookmarked this and will keep on coming to read more. Thanks.


  2. Prof Thomson, thank you. I have already included you in my thesis acknowledgements.

    But as I read this post I recalled the words Roberta Flack sang:
    “Strumming ny pain with his fingers
    Singing my life with his words
    Killing me softly with his song …..”

    From somone whose work I respect, you described perfectly what is – I am sure, the experience of many.


  3. A friend alerted me to Patter and I am so grateful to find issues that I am experiencing are common to others, not least accomplished and experienced academics. While posts such as this one may feel like procrastination, your sharing of where you are in the production process is enlightening and very helpful for those of us struggling with their first major writing challenge – academic or otherwise. I have complete trust that you will deliver a quality product, as I’m sure your publishers do too, but thank you for your diversion. Best, Jacqui


  4. treesshrubs says:

    So enjoy reading yr posts…. they are like conversations …with you 😄

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  5. Sarah says:

    Those last two lines were exactly what I needed to read today. My thesis is due at the end of the month, and reading this has tamped down the panic rising from my stomach, and sent me off to my work with renewed determination. I will make it. I will!


  6. JANE S. says:

    Dear Pat:
    I was spoiled for choice, as to which of your sentences and paras rings the loudest bell, but “what I sent off was pretty underdone” wins, vis-à-vis my recently submitted thesis. Especially that “the implications of the argument weren’t nearly strong enough.”
    However, I’m told everyone feels like this, post~ dispatch. After thinking about it 24/7 for years, it’s difficult to realise it’s all over.

    You’re lucky, if you have a project ahead, but I don’t know if I’ll return to the type of writing I once did. Academia has changed one’s voice in a strangely indefinable way, and maybe the thesis was a stretch too far.

    However, whatever one writes, it’s not easy to be emotionally detached. Self-doubt and anxiety go with the territory. Even when I know what needs to be done, imposter syndrome can kick in, e.g., when a reader points out an obvious oversight, or I’m tired or bored, or something unexpected surfaces in the piece.


  7. Sylvana says:

    Thank you love it

    Sylvana Mahmic



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